Why hello there!

Well it sure has been a while since Ive been on my blog, but im sure my mom has be keeping everyone updated. As of now I have NO idea what to do. I love Kevin, even though hes an ass.. but i started falling for Steven. I know he can support me better than kevin can but I just cant let him go. And I want the girls to have their parents together, that hurts me the most. I need some advice about what in the world I should do because I really dont know.



This is laurel =)

The girls with santa

Most recent picture of me and the girls laurel is on the left and jaeda is on the right (same with the santa pic)

2 month pic

Fed up

This is just a vent blog. Of course about the prick that left me and his girls a little over 2 months ago. I had my ultrasound today. Wanted to call him and tell him, hey our girls look so much like you. Well the call didnt go through. So I asked his mom if he got his number changed. He did. And no one bothered to tell me a damn thing, and she knew I had been sending him messages a few days ago. I had written him a letter this weekend and he never replied with a call or anything so I was txting him to see if he got it. Well now I know why he didnt respond, because he changed his number. What if there had been an emergency, and I dont want to go through his parents just to talk to him. It makes me so upset. I didnt do anything to him and hes treating me like crap. Just all of a sudden too. We were fine like a month ago. I dont know what happened. I just know that we need to talk face to face, soon. Or Im taking him to court. Im just so frustrated. The past 2 weeks have been so hard for me. Break ups are supposed to get better after time, but its just been getting worse, Ive been crying myself to sleep every night for the past week. and every time I mention him I start to cry. I just dont understand. Im mad at myself because a part of me still wants him there when I deliver, but I know he doesnt deserve it, and wouldnt show up anyways cuz hes acting like he doesnt care. And his mother isnt helping. Shes all upset cuz I told her that she couldnt be at the house every day. Hello we need privacy too. Plus the grandparents dont need to see their grandkids every day. I dont know any families where they get to see them every day. Except them cuz they are right next door to each other. But they arent really even family to us so.... why? Maybe 3 times a week. Thats enough isnt it? I just dont know what to do about kevin. Hes such a prick that cant make up his mind. Hes being so childish and for once I dont want him back. I hope I find someone the girls can call dad before they understand because it breaks my heart that they arent going to have a father. I thank you for reading this because i went on and on and it was way long lol
Maybe things will get better. I just get tired of people telling me that it will. Cuz as of right now, I dont see how its going to.

Baby Shower (finally haha)

Finally after over a week, pictures from the shower haha. We tried getting as many pictures as we could for you ladies hehe Mom will have some posted on her blog too =)

This is mine and my friend jennifer's belly. Shes due in December and is having a baby boy
Also dad trying to pull my shirt up hehe

me Kevin's parents (stacie and Jeff)

me and my parents! Love you guys!! =)

Me cutting cake

Gift opening.. I didnt have a good photographer by the way, so sorry my expression doesnt seem happy. She took them at the wrong time haha

Candles.. they smelled soo sweet!

It was a mobile

Cayden helping me open a beautiful crib set

clothes =)

my throne haha

punch fountain

the cake.. kinda plain but ya.. we didnt order it, kevin's mom did...

Way Back WHENs-day

Me and my friend Melanie last July at Lake Van

See who else is playing at
Twinfatuation

football game! Go cats!

We had our 2nd football game last night! (we wont 55-0 on the first game by the way) We played the Falcons and won 42-0! The season is starting off really well this year! Maybe coach montoya is finally getting into the groove! Haha He's an awesome coach! and math teacher. I dont have a picture of him or else Id put one up (hes not bad looking hehe)
His wife is having her baby this week! A baby boy they are naming Isiah Samuel. =)
Back to football. We play our rivals this Friday, the demons. We'll see if we are any better by playing them. The past 2 years weve lost to them something to 0! But we won 3 years ago. That was when we had really good players on our team. Hopefull we will win Friday night.
THe pictures were taken by my sister since I didnt go to the game =( We are in green by the way!! GoBobcats =p

Had a scare

Last night I had to go to L & D because I had really bad pain in my pelvic area. It felt like my bladder was being pushed on really really really hard. I didn't think it was too serious but better safe than sorry. I was hooked up to these things that listened to their heartbeats for over 2 hours. And I was in the same position on my back. The last 20 minutes by back hurt so bad. I finally had my mom tell them I had to pee so I could get up. But the Dr. had showed up so I didn't have to lay down again, just to get checked to see if I had dilated any.I haven't so everything is fine.
I have to go in Tuesday or Wednesday so she can check again. And I guess for some pre term labor test. I want these babies out already though! 4 or 5 more weeks and it should be okay to have them and theyll be healthy. Small but healthy. I have a sonogram on the 9th. So we'll be able to find out if Laurel (baby A) turned or not. In a way I hope she did because then Theres a chance Ill at least have one of them natually. Yes, I'm crazy, but I want to be able to experience the whole birthing thing.


Im 31 weeks today. But... I havent gotten the picture taken lol. So here is the 30 weeks photo. I told my mom it was the shirt that made me look big.. But no... its my belly lol Im going to try and get a more recent picture up. There isn't much of a difference but ya know..

29 wks/bros/sister

This is my 29 weeks picture
I was told everyone was asking when I was going to post some more of my bump.
Here it is!
lol Ill do a separate post of my 30 wks photos



29 wks!!


My brothers walking around with their blankets!
They love walking now, and they are everywhere!

Theres Chantelle with her picture smile
Fake but still cute!
I love this brat

MUAHAHA.

The other side of mom!
She didn't think I would post this picture
hahaha
I love you =)

Debi's Donut Recipe

We got this recipe from Debi over at "Love is...New Additions To The Family"
Thanks Deb!
We had a blast making them!


getting ready to put them in

greasy!! haha

now they are ready for the powder

look at all of them!

Chantelle and I powdering them

the finished product

Me eating one. I had powdered sugar all over my hand
Didnt know sister was taking the picture
I look more fat than pregnant lol

Chantelle posing

the boys liked it too

babies =)

I had an ultrasound about 2 weeks ago. I also had that sugar test done.
I didnt bring anything to eat after I got my blood taken so i wasnt feeling to good. Her putting that thing on my belly didnt help much either. At the beginning I started feeling nauseas and had to sit up a few times. I thought I felt better so I laid back down. about 5 min later I had to sit back up again. Then I started to get rly light headed like I was going to pass out, and I really thought I was going to. Then all of a sudden I threw up that juice I had to drink. Ugh It was horrible having to throw up in front of someone I had just met. I had the jelly stuff they put on my belly all over me. It was terrible lol. I felt a lot better after that, but was still sweaty and a little sick feeling. Jennifer (the sonogram tech.) managed to get one facial of each baby.
It was hard but she got em. Theyre a lil blurry though. Tilt your head to the right. =)


This is baby B
Jaeda Renae And this is Baby A
Laurel Mae
(this was a hard one to get.
She kept moving and so did I)

This is my 28 wks pic (lil after actually)
I will be 30 weeks 2morrow!!
I will post more pics when I can.
Ive been busy with school =)

Its been a while

I havent been on my blog in quite a while. I really havent been up to it with all the drama and stress going around. Kevin and I are done for good. I finally got him to admit, more than a week later after he left, that he broke up with me to be with another girl like 2 hours away. I think its pathetic. He'll never see her and hes got a gas hog for a truck to begin with. Im filing for child support as soon as I can. He just recently deleted me from his myspace page, pictures and everything. Makes it seem like he doesnt want to have anything to do with me. Thats not right at all cuz he wants to be with his kids still and stuff. Its not fair that he wants nothing to do with me and not even act like Ive ever existed and then still be involved in my kids' lives. Its not fair at all.
I got some pictures before he admitted to me about her, when we were happy and okay with being friends. I really wish things couldve worked out better. These pictures turned out so well

MY FAVORITE

WHEN WE WERE HAPPY AND EVERYTHING WAS OKAY

Last night I went to a dance with some friends and actually had a good time. It was nice to get out for once and see people and friends I havent seen in a long time. Hopefully I'll be able to see them more




Me and Tosha
Known her since February, but never got to hang out with her much

Me and Sam
Ive liked this guy for years, but never actually met and had a conversation. Well ive seen him around, was just to afraid to say anything.
Finally got to see him and spend time together last night
Shorty though haha

catching up and belly pics

Well there isn't much catching up to do. Just the same old stuff. Trying to get my room perfect for when the girls come. It still isn't clean but its getting there.
Kevin and I have been fighting a lot. Sometimes i don't even know if i can take it anymore. Every time we do fight I think of the girls and try to make up with him. I hate out that is one of the reasons we are staying together. i hope it all works out though

Well like I said before, been cleaning my room. Kevin and i were going through some clothes. That I can no longer wear... =( He decided to try some on.. haha
He's such a dork!

Well here are my belly pics starting from

week 20

Week 21

week 22

week 23... oops... i forgot to take one that week



week 24

week 25

They pretty much all look the same.. i guess its just the angle, and it also depends on the shirt I'm wearing. Eventually you'll be able to tell the difference haha
Thx for reading

Ravioli for lunch and M & Ms

Well I got to feed the boys today and boy did they make a mess!
They love their ravioli though! mmm


Here's Cayden! Smile!and Ty, it got worse!

Cayden reaching some M & Ms. He loves them things
Can't give him too many at a time cuz he'll put them all in his mouth!!

Ty can't get a grip on them.
He likes to savor them so its all melted on his chin and fingers hehe

M & Ms!!